They Better Not Take My Thyroid!

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I am tired. I am always tired. Now while I can put some of that on being overweight, working on that, some of it is also put on staying up super late at night, changing back to an early to bed early to rise schedule asap, I also put that on my bum thyroid gland. So when I first learned about my thyroid being slow I was placed on 25mcg Levothyroxine tablets. 3 months later I was placed on 50 mcg tablets. 3 months after that I was placed on 75 mcg tablets. Then I didn't see my doctor for almost half a year, secretary at the clinic told me I didn't need to see her unless I had a problem, well when I demanded to come back...secretary was wrong, I was placed on 88 mcg tablets. We decided to wait another 6 months to see if weight loss or something would change the levels. So then my doctor up and quits and I get assigned a PA. When I go talk to him, my levels had spiked high. I wasn't sure if that was good or bad until he put me on 125 mcg pills and made me a referral to see a specialist. *sigh* I am so worried this woman is going to tell me that I should have my thyroid removed. I don't want that. Pills for the rest of my life, I finally came to terms with, thyroid completely removed...that's just not a comforting thought to me. Nor is the idea of having surgery. So I am nervous.

My appointment is tomorrow. It's upstairs in the clinic I go to, which you can only access from an elevator. I HATE elevators with a passion. Yep, I'll admit it, I hate being in closed up spaces, and though it will be a few seconds worth of torture, I am dreading it and it's adding to the stress over the appointment. But it will be worth it if she can help me feel somewhat normal again. I really want to get my thyroid to a functioning level because I would like to have kids one day and that gland not only plays a big part in me getting pregnant but it also plays a big part in baby formation. So yeah, tomorrow's appointment will be a big one for me. Fingers crossed it will be a positive one. I know there are higher doses of medicine she could put me on, and I am really hoping for that. I also want to ask her if there is anything I can do naturally, like lose weight or maybe take certain vitamins and minerals, to help get that gimpy gland of mine working again. I have read that it's impossible to get a bum thyroid gland working again, but I've also read some people had theirs working again with weight loss. So who knows. Crazier things have happened in life, why not a gland miraculously working again? I'll be sure to ask about that tomorrow. For now, I am just focusing on staying calm and relaxed. If I have time today I will finish up that last needle felting kit I have and then I will start to entertain you all with my first 5 attempts. I promise you, that will be a post worth viewing. :-)

And on that note I am off. I am going to go have a cup of coffee, I'd given it up for a few days but decided it's my one vice so I am taking it back, and then I am going to try to get some things done before an early bedtime. Haven't been sleeping to well lately due to stress over appointments and a rather stupid decision I made back in April, that I finally corrected the day before yesterday. So while things are slowly getting back to normal, my sleep is still lacking. Hopefully an early bedtime will fix all that. I'll let you know tomorrow. Until then, take care my lovelies. Bye for now. :-)