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I should have known something was going to happen when I say I am almost caught up. I haven't been able to blog or update my blog in the past couple of days. I have felt sick and I don't know what it is exactly. Light-headed, short of breath, exhausted all the time, just sucks. I want to sleep all the time. I will am forcing myself to write my due articles and then I will come back to the blog. I feel just so funky since my dosage change, but it's suppose to make me feel better. Ugh! Well I just wanted to let you all know I have not disappeared, just tired all the time. Hope you are all doing well and I will talk to you soon. :-)

Michelle

Still here…

Just haven’t been feeling well.  The acid reflux has been bad as of late, and today I finally decided to try to eat a bland diet in hopes it will help heal my stomach. I am trying to avoid the scope down the throat by all means. I know this means strict weight loss to get the fat off my inner organs, but I am finding that hard to do. But I am still working on it, so I am hopeful.  

I have some stuff I want to share with you guys and I hope to be able to do that in the next few days. Just haven’t felt like thinking to put out nicely worded posts, but I will get those done in the next week. I still have a lot to do and people to catch up with. If you’ve sent me an email or left me a message of some kind, I’m super sorry I haven’t gotten back to you yet but I will.  I promise.

And that’s all for today guys and dolls.  I’m going to go back to relaxing, my anxiety is up because the acid is stealing my breath from me today, and just focus on how much better I will feel tomorrow and the day after that.  Small steps, taking it day by day.  Hope you are all doing well and enjoying the end of the weekend.  Talk to you again soon. Be good until then.  Bye for now.

Loves ya,
Mouse

Ever Have That Moment Where You Realize…

that you seriously messed up?  Well, it finally hit me today that I royally messed up.  So I have once again basically been stuck in bed again feeling sick like crazy and not understanding why.  But then I finally stopped to think about it and realized how I reacted when I did certain things and well…I really need to leave gluten alone.  I know!  I know!  I know I said I was going back on a strict gluten-free diet.  And I meant every word of it.  But after going almost a week on gluten-filled food I guess my body began to crave it again.  And so almost every day since I said I was going back on gluten-free I’ve been having a taste of gluten here and there.  And today it just all hit me to the point where a couple of times I wanted to just go down to my knees and give into the discomfort.  So yeah…

But I don’t know why I did it?  Why didn’t my health mean more to me than having a cracker or a piece of bread?  Especially knowing that if I am truly gluten-intolerant that I have further messed up my intestines from my gluten adventure.  It’s been messing with my weight loss.  It’s been messing with my life, moreso than usual.  So why would I give in.  They say if you have gluten-intolerance that you crave it more.  So maybe that’s it.  I don’t know.  All I do know is I am going to try something new to get back on on track with a strict gluten-free diet.  Although its very hard to be on one in my current living situation, I’ll do my best to make it happen.

I just see all these ailments I had before slowly coming back and I don’t understand how this isn’t screaming at me to get a grip.  Like I now have tonsil stones again.  I haven’t had them since going gluten-free, or at least not that I know of.  For those of you who don’t know what they are, tonsil stones are when mucus collects in these pockets in your tonsil and food and debris that get caught in it start to solidify and form into a stone.  They say most adults get it and that even if you have your tonsils removed you can still get them, so there’s not point in doing so.  Well I guess with the gluten causing my body to react to it I guess it’s made for the ripe situation to get them again.  And they are bad this time.  I’m hoping they will dislodge soon and my throat will start to feel better.  Ughhh!

On a brighter note, my mom got her heart monitor today and will have it until Thursday. On another good note, she didn’t have an episode yesterday, which is even better.  But on a down note, she was fine today until she had some meat that was FULL of sodium and she ended up having an episode.  Something makes me think she needs to go on a strict low sodium diet, which she is suppose to already be on, and maybe stop a medicine she is taking that might be the issue.  I don’t know.  We’ll see I guess.  All our diets need to improve here, but there are so many excuses it drives me batty.  But I won’t give up.  I shall continue to fight the good fight!  Fighting!  Hehehe, one to many Korean dramas, don’t mind me. 

Well, that’s about it for now.  Mostly I’ve just been spending my time surfing doll forums to pass the time and keep my mind off the intense sickness I feel.  I finally made my mind up on what I want for my birthday and will be purchasing that at the end of the month or first day of August.  I have decided against a hamster right now since my room would be too hot or too cold for it, and one innocent hamster turned into 3 all living in the same cage…my mom and sister both want one, and so I just said forget it for now.  I might get one around Halloween or Christmas if I can find a good space for him in my room and so I will only have one to deal with and not three.  So no ham-ham, just dolls.  But in the end, am I really losing on the deal?    Talk to you guys later.  Be good until then.  Bye for now.

Loves ya,
Mouse

My 5 Day “Experiment” With Gluten

Hey guys and dolls. I know it’s been a few days since I’ve posted.  I haven’t had really much to blog about doll or craft wise.  Just been “living” I suppose you can say.  But I wanted to hop on here real quick to update you on how I’ve been doing since I’ve returned to a gluten diet.  In one short word, horrible.  I told myself there is no way that two very expensive tests could be wrong.  Well, I knew the wheat test could show up wrong, but I didn’t think the celiac one would show up wrong.  I mean it’s a very expensive test, so I thought for sure it would be accurate.  But after just 5 days of eating gluten, that I said I would just have a tiny bit of and ended up eating it for every meal and most of the day, I feel differently.  All those ailments that I had gotten rid of are slowly coming back.

 

Posts coming tomorrow…errr later on today.

I got glutened yesterday by a product that is gluten free, and might I add super yummy, but processed on flour lines.  I didn’t know that until after I had helped my sister polish off most of it.  An hour or two later had me in bed sick as a dog and getting a rash.  I’m feeling a lot better now but still a bit of breathlessness and panic.  So the posts I wanted to make today will have to wait.  *sigh* Well they will be better if I am not rushing through them so I can lay down again.  So expect a post from me soon. Bye for now. 

Loves ya,
Mouse

A bit of an update.

Hey guys, I thought since you all have basically been with me through my health battle that I’d update you on the news discoveries.  So the doctor’s office called today and some of my blood work is back in.  I am low in Vitamin D, which I knew.  I am low in iron, which I knew.  I have hypothyroidism, which I didn’t know.  She called in my prescriptions for my medicines…more medicines.   

So I stopped to think about it, when my mom picks up her medicine she gets a medium size paper bag to carry it all in.  A lot of older people I’ve seen picking up their medicine seem to have to do that.  Well I thought about all my medicine that I will or would have been taking.  If you add the Zoloft to the list I would have Zoloft, Prilosec, Fiber, Multi Vitamin, Vitamin D, Iron, and Thyroid medicine.  7 things people!!!  7 things!!!  But I am not taking the Zoloft so it’s only really 6, but still, that’s medium paper bag status!!!  My mom took 50 something years to get to that level, and I only took 32? Probably less, I bet I’ve had these issues for a few years now.    What the hell?

And so I decided to do some research on HT and read the symptoms and saw a lot of the things on the list I had.  Then I kept looking and saw it could cause the person to get an enlarged heart!  WTH?!?!?  One of my worse fears and something I’ve been worried about as of late and there it was in black and white for me to have a panic attack over…and yes, I almost did.  But I calmed myself down enough to go into deep depression, which is also a symptom.  I’d been wondering why my depression went from regular pull myself out of it depression to doom and gloom nothing will get better depression.  Perhaps now I know?  I don’t know.  What I do know is I’m frustrated, I’m angry, I’m lost, I’m scared, and I’m tired of being sick and tired all the time.   Hopefully these extra pills will do something to make me feel better.  If it will help me lose weight that would be great.  It would give me energy that would be great.  Speaking of which, I knew I was exhausted from the low iron, but also found out HT causes low energy too.  No wonder I just feel tired all the time even after hours of sleep. 

But yeah, that’s where I’m at right now.  Just trying to wade through this swampy mess of game called “What’s Wrong With Me Now?”.  I know I’m not as bad off as others, and I’m very thankful for that.  But damn I wish I could start feeling better now.  And now my sister needs to see a doctor because I know she’s low in Vitamin D as well, and we think she might have PCOS.  My mom has it and she has been showing symptoms.    So far, knock on wood, I haven’t.  As my friend Sarah says, one aliment at a time Michelle.  I have a strong feeling this is going to be a stressful year trying to fight my way back to better health.

I wish I had better stuff to tell you guys.  I wish I had amazing stories to tell you or share with you.  I wish I had tutorials to share or new dolls to share or just anything nice to share.  I’m happy to hear all the great stories going around in the doll community, and I’ve been keeping up as best as I can between naps and just zoning out, but I just wish it was me too chiming in with something new and fun to show you guys.  I have a video I took last night with my cell phone but it doesn’t seem to want to load into WMM so I may not be able to ever show you guys.    Damn, 5 sad faces in one post, epic.  Meh.  Ok, I’m off guys.  I just wanted to update you on what I’ve learned.  Not sure if anyone was interested.  Just thought I’d share in case you were.  I’ll post soon.  I’ll still try that video and see if it will post.  Ok, bye for now guys.  Be good until next we meet.

Loves ya,
Mouse

Hiatus.

Yep, it’s that time again folks.  I did good for 15 days, but I really need a hiatus from blogging for a bit, which honestly makes me so sad.  I wanted to try blogging every day this year but I really can’t.  It’s hard to come up with new things doll related to blog about when you aren’t creating anything yourself to share with the world.  And I really can’t get creative right now, not that I have the drive to do it right now either.  I really need to focus on my health right now.  I need to figure out how to get to a doctor and try to get my life back.  I can’t move forward with any of my plans because I’m sick in bed most of the day and it worries me and everyone around me.  I’m barely eating, and I don’t really care, but I guess the body kind of needs food to live.  I feel really bad just taking off like this, but I can’t be a better blogger or member of the community until I feel good internally.  I’ll be back guys, I promise.  I’ve still got big plans for this year to share with you all.  But in order to do them I need to be able to get out of bed for longer than a few minutes without feeling horrid.  So wish me luck on that and I will be back soon.  Hugs to you all.  Be good until I get back ok.    Bye for now.

Loves ya,
Mouse

Hey guys.

I’m not even going to fake that I feel good.  I don’t.  I ate a larger amount of food today that I have in the past couple of weeks, and trust me that isn’t much, and it has my stomach burning.  So I am really not in the blogging mood today but I still wanted to blog.  So I decided to find you some entertainment from the Tube.  Enjoy this cute little story.

Talk to you all later.

Loves ya,
Mouse

*In sing-song voice.* Guess who glutened?

*Raises hand and waves it like a maniac in the air.*  Oooo!  Ooooo!  Meee!  Meeee!!!  Yep yours truly has gotten herself in a fine pickle, and it wasn’t “technically” my fault.  Ok, so since going gluten-free I’ve had to give up a lot of my fave munchies.  Which was fine with me until a couple of weeks ago.  I was CRAVING something crunchy.  Something that wasn’t mushy like the mashed potatoes and pasta that I’d been eating.  So I was wondering if Cheetos was gluten-free.  I went to the Frito-Lay website and saw that a lot of their stuff is gluten-free, but here’s the rub.  Their food is processed on machinery that is only washed down in between batches of gluten-full stuff and gluten-free stuff.  So there is a chance of CC.  Well I figured, since they are boasting on their website that their foods are indeed gluten-free that getting CC was a slim chance.  I was wrong.  So wrong.

For the past couple of weeks I’ve been snacking on the cheesy yum-yums thinking I finally found something to make me feel “normal” again.  That is until earlier this week.  I noticed my tummy hurt after eating Cheetos.  At first I thought it was the cheese or grease or salt.  But then as time went on I noticed I got stomach pain, acid, and flushed and rashy face.  Uh oh.  Come to find out, a lot of people with gluten intolerance got sick after eating Cheetos.  Well…damn.    So I have officially given up the “cheesy crack” that I lovingly called it, and called it a sick day.  Well that was yesterday and yep, I’m still sick.    Trying not to focus on it right now, but I am really bad off tonight.  I know I won’t be getting any peace tonight.  I took some Tums and I feel a tiny bit better.  Maybe I will get a little sleep tonight.  All I know is I am going to start counting calories again today and sticking with only the items I know are gluten-free.

I baked some Betty Crocker Gluten-Free cookies today and I have mixed reviews on them.  They are made from the same stuff as the Betty Crocker Yellow Cupcakes.  At first I didn’t like the smell or taste of the cupcakes but when they got cold I liked them better.  Now with the cookies, they had the same smell, and straight out of the oven they were very crumbly.  Now in order to mix the cookie dough I had to stick my hand in the bowl and mash it all together because it just was so crumbly and wouldn’t mix in so I wasn’t surprised that they were the same straight out of the over.  But if you let it sit a few minutes…like it says on the box , they actually looked like normal chocolate chip cookies.  The taste was ok, but even using a stick of butter they missed that buttery taste and well I guess the taste of “regular” flour.  It’s something I could get used to I’m sure of it, and it really isn’t that bad, but I miss the old taste of chocolate chip cookies.  Meh, I’ll get over it.  And if anything it makes me crave cookies less.  I still have a big hunk of the batch I made in the fridge and my family helped me with a few of them.

But yeah I’ve been dealing with feeling icky as of late.  I need to catch up with people online, and I’m so sorry if I have not responded to you yet, but I just have wanted to lay in bed and finish watching a Korean drama I started a while ago.  It ended ok, but I wish it would have ended a slightly different way.  If anyone is curious, “My Girlfriend is a Nine-tailed Fox” is super cute.  You’ll have to do a bit of searching to find it, but just it’s worth it.  Mi Ho is soooo cute and you can’t help but smile and laugh at her antics.

But that’s all I have to say in this post.  Just trying to touch base with you all.  I have some doll stuff I wanted to chat about, but I will do that in another post coming up in a few minutes.  Bye until then.

Loves ya,
Mouse

Hey guys.

Still here, just been trying to knock some things off my to-do list, which I am, slowly but surely, but also I’ve been feeling really bad again.  I’m feeling horrible right now and my anxiety is through the roof, but out of the blue I decided to do some research and I think I know finally what is wrong with me.  Only problem is I don’t think I will be able to convince anyone here what I have and I may not get better if I don’t.  But a simple change in diet alone would allow me to get my life back if I am right and I’m just feeling lost and alone at the moment trying to figure out how to get the help I need.  I wish I had someone to talk to about it, but I don’t, so I bring it to my blog and to my readers who give a listening ear.  Thank you for that.  I’ll be back in a couple of days to tell you guys what is going on with me.  Right now I just need some time to sort out how to get others to believe me about what I think I have.  I literally have every symptom they have mentioned and I would lay in bed scared wondering what was wrong with me and now it all makes sense.  Sorry this turned into a mini vent when all I wanted to do was let you know where I’ve been.  Also I know I still need to get back to people and I WILL, also I WILL respond to all my comments, I just haven’t been feeling up to it.  But I hope to attack both this week.  Ok, I’m off.  Going to try to get some sleep.  Talk to you all soon.  Bye for now.  Oh and a belated Rabbits, Rabbits, Rabbits and Happy October to you all.

Loves ya,
Mouse

Still here…

Feeling like poo.  Dealing with health and life ish at the mo.  Will return to you soon.  Will respond to comments and emails this weekend and catch up on blogs as well, promise. Just haven’t felt like doing much of anything lately.  I’ll explain it all to you in a weekend blog post.  Be good until then.  Bye for now.

Loves ya,
Mouse

I did it!!!

Hey guys!  So I know I have not blogged in a couple of days.  I ultimately blame it on my tummy.  I so need to get my rear in gear and start losing this weight and stop acting like it will magically jump off my body.  I have faith that if I get the weight off my tummy that will help a lot of my problem, and I’m really also starting to wonder if I am allergic to gluten.  Hummm…

Anyway, so early I posted about how I was working on knitting gnome hats for Blythes.  But my first 3 attempts didn’t go so well.  I mean they are still cute but I was obviously doing something wrong.  Well I tried again today working on my 4th attempt while my sister and I watched “Easter Parade”, watch it it’s truly a kickass movie, and well this attempt started out awesome.  I worked on it some more just a little while ago and just finished it.  It’s PERFECT!!!  because of how they look and the rainbow color I kind of want to call them my Seussian Gnome Hats…as in Dr. Seuss.  They make me think of the cover of one of his books that has rainbow tunnels and little furry animals.  If I find it I will let you know.  But that’s what I think of when I look at my hats.  I will take pictures of all four hats later on today and post pictures of them.  Then I will take the other three apart and attempt to reknit them.  Woot!

Other than that I haven’t done much.  Watching some vlogs and reading some blogs by authors.  And basically trying to get my lazy butt back to my novel.  I should actually go to sleep since I am yawning but I feel so sick to my stomach.  I did a product review for a big name company and the item is in its “testing” stage.  Which means if the product is to spicey or too hot I got to tell them.  Guess what I got to tell them?  Yeah the stuff was hella hot for me and my mom but for my sister and dad it was perfect.  It’s funny, the two hot-heads of the family, me and my mom, can’t handle the spice but the two cool-heads of the family, my dad and sister, can handle it.  In fact, if it doesn’t make my sister’s not run and make her look completely miserable then it’s not hot enough.  *rolls eyes*  Must be nice to have such a young stomach.  Ok, so mine isn’t that old, but it sure feels like it.

But that’s about it.  Been having some storms and much needed rain because we will be in a full on draught again soon, and been reading more, and yeah.  If I can just add exercise and watching my diet I’d be in business.  Oh I also came up with a banner idea for my shop, which I embarrassingly admit, was the main reason I hadn’t don’t anything with it..  I wanted a banner that would make my shop name make sense.  Also I took some pictures for my return to photostories, but that will need some editing due to what it will be so yeah, I have that to work on.  A lot to do and my tummy doesn’t want to play nice.  :-(  So not fair.  I hate not being able to do all that I want to do because I feel sick and panicked over it.  Oh well, gotta push through and forward.

And before I close I just want to say rest in peace Garry Coleman.  I just feel so sorry about his passing and the way he passed.  May the healing begin for his wife, family, friends, and fans.  I loved “Different Strokes” as a kid and it’s sad that he is no longer with us.

Well I think I will go write for a while now and then see if my tummy is ready to hit the hey.  Damn product testing.  I will not test anything like that again.  I’ll ask the family to but I refuse to do it.  Tummy is burning.  Hate that so much.  Ok, a picture post to be posted soon. Bye for now.  :-)

Loves ya,
Mouse

Happy April Fools Day!!!

Rabbits, rabbits, rabbits everyone! And Happy April Fools Day! Not more than 2 minutes when I woke up this morning did I go prank the prankster of the house...my mom. *Insert wicked grin here.* I told her I was considering breaking up with the boyfriend because he was constantly yelling at me and being cruel to me. Her mouth dropped in shock for a full minute before I said "April Fools!!!" It was funny! She called me a rat and laughed. Just had to get her before she got me...of course there is still 13 hours left to this crazy day. My boyfriend got pranked as well and well...his friend is a tard. That's all I have to say.

He played a really cruel joke on my guy...I'm secretly hoping my man will get him back...albeit in a much nicer way. To give you an idea of the joke, he told my man he had broken several bones that required surgery due to bad accident. Yeah...NOT FUNNY. Ok, it was a hair funny when you saw it was an April Fools prank, but only a sliver of a hair funny. Moreso funny that it was a joke and not real. He's a young guy, so I will leave it to his youth. Boys will be boys I suppose. Nah...I know younger men who wouldn't do that. He's a tard. :-)

So what do I have planned on this wonderfulist of days? Nothing much really. Exercise, maybe taking the pictures for my photostory and trying to find my past photostory, and hummm, look for more patterns that I may want to sew. Been collecting some patterns and have thought about starting out with some Blythe patterns as I think about the male clothes I want to make. I want them to be fun and not just your boring t-shirt and shorts. Still in the thinking mode for that.

Well that's all I wanted to say kiddies. I need to go take some Zantac...yep tummy is messed up again, get dressed to go out for a while, and change the calendar. What? That takes a conscious effort from me or I will go half a month or more before I flip it. Gonna go do it as soon as I click the button to publish. You all stay safe today and don't get to made at the pranksters in your life. They mean well. Be sure to get your revenge though, because as you know, one good prank deserves another. *Insert another wicked grin here.* Bye for now kids.

Loves ya,
Mouse

Let's play catch up.

So I have not been really active in the doll world besides an occasional blog post. I have been dealing with some nasty issues. First I was dealing with the second cold of the month I got. When I thought it was getting better it would suddenly turn around and get worse. Ugh! Finally over that and now I stay away from people as much as I possibly can when I am out and about. So not trying to get sick again, especially now that it's slowly starting to warm up. If there is one thing I hate more than being sick it's being sick when it's hot outside. Makes me miserable and it's just not right to be sick in the Spring and Summer.

Well after I was over the cold I decided to get my butt back on track with weight loss. Well that has been tricky for me for a while now since trying to lose weight usually causes problems with my stomach. If I eat to little I get acid. If I eat to much I get acid. If I exercise I get acid. And I've been tinkering around with all of the above. So the past two weeks have not been pretty on my side of the world. It was almost impossible to sit up straight after long periods of time without feeling sick. And if I could sit up and didn't feel any pain, I'd feel it after I got up. I refuse to give up on trying to lose weight because I know weight loss is the answer to a lot of my problems. Just wish I knew a way around the stomach pain. It gets so bad some times it causes panic because it makes me get short of breath and have tons of pain in the chest area. Not fun. But I'm not giving up. Have had to rearrange some things that I am doing when it comes to exercise and eating, but it's only until I start to feel better and then I can slowly change things around again. Let this be a lesson to you kids, if you aren't chunky don't get chunky and if you are chunky work on losing the weight because it only gets harder to do as you get older and you only have worse issues to look forward to. *sigh*

But today I woke up feeling somewhat better, although I do feel some ickiness in the tummy and will need to move around after this post. I plan on posting as much as I can today because I have some "thank yous" to send out as well as just some things I've been meaning to talk about. I also want to hit some blogs today and comment since I just haven't been able to before.

I hope everyone reading this is doing well and that you all are having a lovely weekend. I'm going to attempt to do some sewing today. Attempt being the keyword. If I don't get to it I will finish a reroot I still have no earthly idea why I started it. Will explain that at a later time once I get closer to finishing. Well that's all for this post. Will post again in a little while. Bye for now. :-)

Loves ya,
Mouse

Still here people!!!

Just sick. Sick, sick, sick, sick, sick. I'm a bit pissy about it. I just got over the last sickness I had and here I am again going through hell. It has made me grouchy and weepy so I am just popping in here and there when I have the energy and just letting everything else go to the wayside for now. But I will be back soon. Just need a few days to give over the bulk of this mess. I know I will be sick for another month, not kidding, but after a week or so the worst SHOULD be over. Ok, talk to you all later. Bye for now.

Loves ya,
Mouse

When it rains it pours.

Or in my case here it turns into ice which can be a lot worse than rain. This week has NOT been my week. My dentist appointment I had for Tuesday was canceled because my hygienist was sick. This is the third time I've been canceled. So word to the wise, don't set up medical stuff during cold anf flu season. Ugh. Well, the day I should have had my appointment I woke up with sore throat. Hummm. Well, I did sleep with my window open the night before, maybe the chimney smoke from other houses in the neighborhood irritated it. Fast forward to the evening, I could barely swallow. Ok, so I figured I was getting a cold. The next day my throat is worse. I start with the cough meds. But now I am getting chills and I am achy. Uh oh. By Friday my simple cold had turned into a full on flu!!! Aches, pains, headache, coughing, sneezing, congestion, the whole freaking 9 yards of it people.

Now I know I seem a bit weepy, but I haven't been sick in two years, maybe 3. I just haven't. And my immune system is crap. Well, I guess I forgot what it felt like to be sick and now I am just complaining and complaining and complaining. It's weird, I am in so much pain even my gums are hurting. I am hoping it's the flu causing the pain and not the deep cleaning I had. So my mom caught this mess too. And the thing is we went and saw my friend and her young kids the other day. Well all of them got sick too and my friend's daughter and her daughter's grandmother got sick. Then her daughter's grandfather got sick. And now my friend is sick. So we are trying to figure out if they caught it from us or we caught it from them. Remember, my hygienist was sick. So this all could have started from her. But who knows. All I know is that I am still in pain and hope the worst is over.

Everyone has been worried about me and I feel bad that all I can really say is a quick muffled "thank you" before zonking out again in bed. But thank you to all who have been worried about me. I really think I am rounding the corner of this race to get well and I will be winning soon. I hope to be able to post one day soon "I fought the flu and I won." LOL! Ok, that was the flu talking, had to be.

Well peeps, I be off now. I still need to figure out how to fix my computer and I need to lay down get some more rest. Not sure if I will be making it to my dentist appointment on Monday now. The roads are still covered in ice! Ugh! And I wanted to go to Tuesday Morning on...well...Tuesday morning for their sale. Hopefully the streets will be clear by then. Ok must really get to bed. Bye for now.

Loves ya,
Mouse

Blogger comments fixed.

Or at least they should be. Thanks to the lovely Smidge Girl for bringing to my attention they weren't working. I tested them and put them in a pop up window. I hope that works for you all now.

Also if you left a comment, I will respond soon. Got hit with a nasty cold suddenly and am dealing with it. Haven't been sick in two years. This year I WILL be getting my flu shot. Sucks to be sick. Ughhhh! Ok, talk to you lovelies soon. Bye for now.

Loves ya,
Mouse

*Flings self on bed and exhales.*

Ladies and gents today has been one of those days you wished you would have stayed in bed. Ok, so today I had a cleaning appointment. That didn't worry me as much as going with my mom...alone. My mom stresses out alot and when she stresses out I get stressed because I worry about how spastic she's going to get. Well that upsets my stomach and makes the breathing hard and the anxiety shoots through the roof. Well, by the time we were at the dentist, the acid was so badly I just wanted to sit down for a long while and relax. Actually I just wanted to go home, but my appointment was 30 minutes away, so I pressed onward. I got called to the back and by the time I had the last person...3rd person...pulling their fingers out of my mouth, I didn't have a cleaning, and I was told I had the beginnings of periodontal disease. Do you know what sound was going on in my head when I heard that? This: *cricket cricket cricket*. Seriously, I was so in shock I didn't know what to think or say. Then they tell me I have 12 cavities they want to fill with plastic filling, and then I need a tooth reconstruction and two crowns put on my two root canals. Oh and one tooth up front needs to be pulled because it is "extra". Ok, after hearing all this I was so deflated and exhausted. Seriously, I looked at my teeth in the car and I am like I don't see anything wrong. I brush, I floss, I rinse, what the heck is going on?



Well the periodontal disease seems to be a family issue. My grandmother lost all her teeth by 30 and my mom's jawbone is diminishing away and she had horrible gum problems as a kid. My sister has gingivitis and she has good oral hygiene too. I mean she got braces and when they were taken off she only had two cavities, very good by most standards. So its just confusing. The cavities I am so confused on too. I am guessing they are very tiny ones. The doctor kept saying "A pock on 4. Dent on 5." Stuff like that. So I guess its just a tiny bit of decay they want to clean out before it gets serious. My mom thinks it may be all the anti-acids I have been eating. Something is affecting my teeth. I mean granted I hadn't had my teeth cleaned in about 5 years due to need the money for root canals and wisdom teeth removal, but when I did have that cleaning it had been since I was 8 that I had a cleaning and I didn't have a single thing wrong except my wisdom teeth which I knew about. So I am wondering what it is that is messing up my teeth. Its been suggested that the tiny grooves in my teeth where the tooth brush can't reach are why I have so many tiny cavities. Ahhhhhhh!!!

So yeah, that is how I started my day and how most of my afternoon went. So now next year I have a ton of dental work I need to do and its going to be so expensive. I hope I can get better healthwise so I can get a good job so I can either get a better insurance or at least pay for some of this work. I am so thankful to my parents for helping me. I used to say I hate my smile, but I will be so happy if I can get rid of the periodontal disease and can keep it. I read that adding more to daily oral hygiene and getting a deep cleaning could be all you need to get rid of it. I have two appointments set up for my cleaning. One for each side of the mouth one week away. I know that's going to hurt and bad. So I am not really looking forward to next year, but it has to be done. :-( Oh well.



Well after the stress with my mom and the stress with the dentist, then I had to truck it around town some and I was in pain from all the acid. We didn't go to too many places and then went home where I finally got to eat and relax for a bit...until my boyfriend called me. On Tuesday my boyfriend called me before work all chipper and he had just stopped at Subway and gotten some food to eat at work. We had a quick call and then I didn't hear from him until later. He was still ok, and then when I was signing off I said good bye and I'd call him. Well he called me and I thought it was just to say good night to me because he was working late. Not so. I called him back and he was home sounding tired. I was confused and I asked him if he was asleep. He said no. I asked why he was home. He said I obviously hadn't gotten his message. Come to find out he got sick. REALLY SICK. I was so worried. I hate that I had to go to sleep, and he needed sleep too, so we had a quick call and said good night. Today I called him to make sure he was ok before I stepped out the door and he was still sick but felt better. We said our good byes and I went on with the rest of my day. So this brings us back to where I left off. For those who don't know, he's a ct tech at a hospital and he called one of his friends to come give him an iv at his home. His friend came over to give him one and he was so dehydrated he couldn't get the needle in the vein. They tried three times before he decided to take a break to go to the bathroom. On the way to the bathroom his blood pressure dropped and he lost his sight. He forced himself to the floor so he wouldn't pass out and hit his head, thank goodness, and his friend asked if he wanted the ambulance called. My boyfriend was so afraid he was dying he said yes, but then they decided to get him to his bed and try the iv there. They put it in his arm this time and it worked. Seems that his body went into shock and that's why he blacked out. When he told me this I was so scared and shaking. There were tears in my eyes, but I held back on crying so I wouldn't upset him more. Last I checked on him he was on his second iv bag. I need to try calling him in a bit. His mom should be home now so I am a little calmer now knowing he isn't alone. Its so scary to think of him alone and being so sick. I hope he's 100% better tomorrow. I wish I was there to watch over him and take care of him. I'm still worried and scared for him.



So that brings me to now. Exhausted, nervous for my boyfriend, and just wanting to crawl into bed and call it a day. The only perk to come out of today was buying Haute Doll and the coveted recycled bag from Books-a-Million. I want to go out and do some shopping for me and for Christmas still. It seems we have a family outing planned for Saturday when my dad is home. So I guess we will see. So as it stands now, I'm tired, exhausted, nervous, and calling it a day. I hope to have a more cheerful post tomorrow and hopefully something doll related. It seems my shop will be reopening sooner than I thought and on Etsy I believe. I need to start making some money while I can't work. I'll explain more later. Night all. See you tomorrow.

Loves ya,
Mouse

Forgot to mention this.

I was just thinking about this today and I was going to mention it last night. Watching Ponyo last night, I noticed the license plate on Lisa's car and laughed. The number on her plate? 333. LOL! I kid you not. I wish I knew why 333 was such a thing with me. I wonder what will happen at 3:33 or what that number means to me? Guess I will find out one day. I kind of think it will be the time that will be called when I pass away when I'm a weak and sick little old lady of 99. Or maybe the time my first child will be born. My winning lottery number perhaps? Meh, I guess I'll have to wait and see. But just wanted to share that with you. Working on my beads some more. I want to finish them so I can get that off my back. They keep calling to me to finish them. Once I finish them I can move on to something else. Oh, I've decided to take a picture of my work space. You've seen it in some of my pictures. I won't take pictures of the room or my room because they are just a mess...which reminds me, I should throw a load of laundry in the wash. I'll do that now and make some cocoa for my empty stomach. I'm fasting today because food is making me so sick. Anyway.

Oh, I wanted to mention something interesting I saw on the news the other day. Its seems the city I live in is one of the top three cities in the US that will be offering a lot of jobs next year due to the military getting bigger here over the next few years. Also my city is 31st in the US to be growing economically. I am shocked because I just thought my little city was kind of boring with nothing exciting about it, but that is actually exciting news. I plan to try to get back into the work force next year part time, and this is good news. I hope that I will feel better next year so I can take advantage of the jobs coming into town. Fingers crossed. Ok, I'm off now. Laundry and some more cocoa. Bye for now ladies and gents.

Loves ya,
Mouse

Mary and Max.

So I'm still sick and today was a bad day. I spent most of the day in bed with my poor broken laptop next to me. The hinge needs to be fixed on it, hopefully next month. To sick to do it now. Anyway, I am catching up on some blogs and on John's blog he mentioned watching a stop animation movie called Mary and Max. It was one of the funniest and touching stories about two pen pals who were so different but so alike too. The ending was so bittersweet, I still have tears in my eyes. If you can rent this movie or watch it online I highly recommend it. Warning, its not for kids. It has adult topics in the movie along the line of where do babies come from and whatnot. I'm off to watch the other movie John mentioned call Ponyo On The Cliff. He said it was cute and I could honestly use cute after feeling so bad and still thinking about Mary and Max's ending. SO yeah, this is just a little update for now. I hope to be able to post more soon. I miss posting every day. More soon peeps, I promise. If you've left a comment, I will get back to you very soon, and thank you so much for the comments. I love getting them. :-) And I will be commenting on blogs as well too. Just want to feel better first so I don't leave rushed comments because I want to go lay back down. Oh well. Until later ladies and gents. Bye for now.

Loves ya,
Mouse